There is no exciting reason for you to read my posts. I'm not famous, I'm not all that bombastic, but I am real, just like some of you. You will read some raw feelings, I imagine, from time to time, as it will be like looking into my journal.
The first week of posts will be about a journey to my ex-husband's grave site and a reconciliation with my ex-sister-in-law. He passed away over 10 years ago and I didn't feel comfortable attending his funeral, nor have I had the courage to address some things with myself or his sister.
It is a journey across 4 states and I'll be driving by myself. This is a first for me as I have been so very co-dependent for most of my life. But, this trip, I'm looking forward to.
I was asked why it was going to take a week to visit a grave and my answer was that I will be writing and meditating and praying as I go. It was a long marriage with some very difficult periods of time that I have to process in my mind.
Using this blog as a way to process a lifetime of what ifs and "woulda, shoulda, couldas" is my goal. I have to forgive myself for some things, I have to forgive others of things and I have to inventory some things and put them on the shelf of "I did the best I could".
So, you're welcome to come with me as I work through my life. I'm looking forward to starting this journey tomorrow (8/14/17) You see, August was the month we were married, he was born, he died, he was hit by a car and he was buried. Until about 28 years ago, it was a happy month and then, slowly it turned into a month that I would rather skip right by.
It won't all be sad.... I'm hoping for some funny spots along the journey and I'll share those too. Who knows what a sixty something year old woman can get into when she is on her own for a week, for the first time in her life.
This should be fun.
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